How to Stop My Negativity

This weekend I really began to feel like a let down to my husband. Not that he said anything, but I thought of how I was when we met. What he thought he was getting and what he got 9 years down the road.

Now all my husband has ever wanted was to own a business. I've described earlier how he latches onto an idea an searches for anyway for us to afford to do it. Me I am afraid to invest everything into one idea. He gets so excited and I immediately bring him down with some negative thought of how the business will fail. I've ruined many a weekend for him because of this. I ruined this weekend. He works so hard on weekend he should be able to be happy and relax, but no I ruined it. As I do many of them.

Here I sit with no job at all and him going to work everyday and dreaming of ideas to become a business owner. Who am I? What makes me smarter? Nothing, but yet I just can't jump on the band wagon. I think of his insurance, his paid vacation, his retirement account and then I think of us losing everything to bankruptcy because of business failure.

I get my negativity from my mother I see it I feel it and some days I change it and some days I can't.

Boy this is a downer, maybe it is the huge headache I have or maybe it is my conscience.